I can’t remember a time that I didn’t look forward to having kids. Growing up the question wasn’t whether or not I wanted kids, but how many. I realize now that that decision isn’t 100% up to me. Robyn has informed me that we are not having the 11 kids I wanted for a football team. Now that Saylor turned three earlier this week, I realized i couldn’t have had that many kids either and it’s for the simple reason of it would be too difficult. When I say “difficult” though, it may be a little different than what you are thinking, let me explain.
love
Motherhood
“You are magnificent. You are doing terrifically well…” -Jeffrey R. Holland
I’ve been feeling a little sentimental and sappy and full of love lately, mostly for and because of my Saylor. After all, she made me a mother, she is literally my heart outside of my body. It is something that no one can explain in the right words, but I know I am not alone in this feeling. I look at her and I can cry because of how much I love her and how much I want and hope for her. Motherhood is scary and overwhelming. It’s all-consuming and can keep you up at night. Sometimes you feel that you can’t do anything right. Please know that you are doing everything right. You are everything your children want and need. It is worth it, and I hope that you know YOU are worth it.